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    MatchboxLizard
    Sex: F
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    Stiffness: Most
    function: Some
    external_stress: Some
    Stickman: some
    Description:F56y
    FM:3y Dx
    I am: n
    I have:
    Fibromyalgia

    MatchboxLizard completed the Mood Map survey

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    Dreading SSD exam.

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    MatchboxLizard
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    Description:F56y
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    I am: n
    I have:
    Fibromyalgia

    MatchboxLizard was feeling neutral

    Numb surface with fast running currents over all....I cannot concentrate, or connect to things I know that I know....I open software that I have used many times, and cannot remember how to manipulate it. I don't know why. I'm taking my meds, but I haven't been able to see my psych for a long time. I don't have insurance, and can't afford to get insurance, despite the best intentions of our president. Each day I push to try to rise to the surface, but I keep sinking lower all the time. Saturday I have an appointment for my SSD exam, and I have no idea how I am going to cope with it. It feels like everyone is heading for the exits, and no one is left in the control room. How do I explain to a professional that he will have to leave a message, and I will get back to him....especially since I am sitting there in front of him? I have spent a lifetime keeping people from seeing the fractures, noticing the differences, realizing that I am something different, someone different, and now I am supposed to willingly reveal myself, (selves) to a stranger? And a man?
    This is more than I can take....

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    MatchboxLizard
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    function: Some
    external_stress: Some
    Stickman: some
    Description:F56y
    FM:3y Dx
    I am: n
    I have:
    Fibromyalgia

    MatchboxLizard updated the condition Fibromyalgia

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    More than a year since my last entry, and the primary treatment for my FM has failed miserably....denial of my condition is not an effective treatment. The meds that I am on seem to be doing there job, but more important than that, I must get quality sleep, and I must get a little exercise each day. Just walking a little more than I normally would during a routine day helps dial down the pain, and improves my mood.

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    MatchboxLizard
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    Sleep: Some
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    function: Some
    external_stress: Some
    Stickman: some
    Description:F56y
    FM:3y Dx
    I am: n
    I have:
    Fibromyalgia

    MatchboxLizard updated her symptoms for

    decrease better BetterSuicidal thoughts or urges, Pain, Agitation with irritability, Pain in lower back, Flashbacks See more
    increase worse WorseDepressed mood, Balance problems, Anxious mood, Persistent worry, Cognitive confusion See more
    mild MildInflammation
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    MatchboxLizard
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    function: Some
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    Stickman: some
    Description:F56y
    FM:3y Dx
    I am: n
    I have:
    Fibromyalgia

    I feel empty, useless....like a husk. Achy, sore, hurting...but cannot muster the energy to care.

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    function: Some
    external_stress: Some
    Stickman: some
    Description:F56y
    FM:3y Dx
    I am: n
    I have:
    Fibromyalgia

    MatchboxLizard updated the condition Dissociative Identity Disorder

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    • Diagnosis:

    Like a blended coffee drink at the moment...but let it set for awhile and it will begin to show the many layers....

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    MatchboxLizard
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    Data Quality: 1 star
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    Sleep: Some
    Stiffness: Most
    function: Some
    external_stress: Some
    Stickman: some
    Description:F56y
    FM:3y Dx
    I am: n
    I have:
    Fibromyalgia

    MatchboxLizard was feeling bad for

    Numbed out, and depressed. I have an appointment for a physical exam for my SSD determination, and I'm afraid I won't be "disabled" enough to get SSD, but too messed up to be able to go back to work. Plus groceries are low, and still another week to get through before my check comes in. Life seems pointless.

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    MatchboxLizard
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    function: Some
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    Description:F56y
    FM:3y Dx
    I am: n
    I have:
    Fibromyalgia

    MatchboxLizard updated her basic information

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    MatchboxLizard
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    Sleep: Some
    Stiffness: Most
    function: Some
    external_stress: Some
    Stickman: some
    Description:F56y
    FM:3y Dx
    I am: n
    I have:
    Fibromyalgia

    MatchboxLizard updated the condition Generalized Anxiety Disorder

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    I think this is part of my fibro, not necessarily a separate condition. It was diagnosed because it was a piece my doctor had a code for. Having said that, anxiety is and always has been part of my genetic make up, like the color of my hair. It is a necessary component of hypervigilance, which will be the death of me. My body is in a permanent state of alertness, watching for danger. Hard on the organs...

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    MatchboxLizard
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    function: Some
    external_stress: Some
    Stickman: some
    Description:F56y
    FM:3y Dx
    I am: n
    I have:
    Fibromyalgia

    MatchboxLizard completed the Mood Map survey

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    I am no longer working, and this eliminated a ton of external stress, plus I am regularly practicing positive affirmations.

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    MatchboxLizard
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    function: Some
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    Description:F56y
    FM:3y Dx
    I am: n
    I have:
    Fibromyalgia

    I'm having kidney pain today. To my knowledge I have no diagnosed issues with my kidneys, but seem to have this pain from time to time. Am I missing something?

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    MatchboxLizard
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    Stickman: some
    Description:F56y
    FM:3y Dx
    I am: n
    I have:
    Fibromyalgia

    MatchboxLizard became a 3 star data donor! star earnedstar earnedstar earned

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    MatchboxLizard
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    Data Quality: 1 star
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    Sleep: Some
    Stiffness: Most
    function: Some
    external_stress: Some
    Stickman: some
    Description:F56y
    FM:3y Dx
    I am: n
    I have:
    Fibromyalgia

    MatchboxLizard completed the PFRS survey for

    • PFRS: 28
    • Fatigue: Some
    • Sleep: Some
    • Stiffness: Most
    • Pain: Some
    • External Stress: Moderate
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    MatchboxLizard
    Sex: F
    Data Quality: 1 star
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    Fatigue: Some
    Sleep: Some
    Stiffness: Most
    function: Some
    external_stress: Some
    Stickman: some
    Description:F56y
    FM:3y Dx
    I am: n
    I have:
    Fibromyalgia

    MatchboxLizard updated her symptoms for

    decrease better BetterBrain fog, Cognitive confusion, Cold intolerance, Depressed mood, Dry skin See more
    increase worse WorseMuscle spasms, Pain in lower back, Social anxiety, Suicidal thoughts or urges
    mild MildAnger, Hypervigilance, Inability to experience pleasure (anhedonia), Intrusive thoughts images or impulses
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    Stiffness: Most
    function: Some
    external_stress: Some
    Stickman: some
    Description:F56y
    FM:3y Dx
    I am: n
    I have:
    Fibromyalgia

    MatchboxLizard updated her weight for

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      Sleep: Some
      Stiffness: Most
      function: Some
      external_stress: Some
      Stickman: some
      Description:F56y
      FM:3y Dx
      I am: n
      I have:
      Fibromyalgia

      MatchboxLizard updated her basic information

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      MatchboxLizard
      Sex: F
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      Fatigue: Some
      Sleep: Some
      Stiffness: Most
      function: Some
      external_stress: Some
      Stickman: some
      Description:F56y
      FM:3y Dx
      I am: n
      I have:
      Fibromyalgia

      MatchboxLizard updated her symptoms for

      decrease better BetterAnxious mood, Muscle spasms, Pain in lower back, Panic attacks, Strain on relationship, Suicidal thoughts or urges
      increase worse WorseAgitation with irritability, Brain fog, Cognitive confusion, Depressed mood, Fatigue See more

      Welcome to my life. There is a symptom that needs to be added....detachment. I am numb, and know I need to shake this off and get ready to go to work, but I could care less. Liesa is going to be upset about another missed day, but I can't get up enough energy to care. So tired....

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        Data Quality: 1 star
        Pain: Some
        Fatigue: Some
        Sleep: Some
        Stiffness: Most
        function: Some
        external_stress: Some
        Stickman: some
        Description:F56y
        FM:3y Dx
        I am: n
        I have:
        Fibromyalgia

        MatchboxLizard updated her symptoms for

        decrease better BetterAnxious mood, Cold intolerance, Nightmares, Persistent worry, Sleep disturbances See more
        increase worse WorseDry skin, Aggression, Agitation with irritability, Cognitive confusion, Depressed mood See more
        moderate ModerateMemory problems, Muscle tension
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        MatchboxLizard
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        Data Quality: 1 star
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        Fatigue: Some
        Sleep: Some
        Stiffness: Most
        function: Some
        external_stress: Some
        Stickman: some
        Description:F56y
        FM:3y Dx
        I am: n
        I have:
        Fibromyalgia

        MatchboxLizard updated her symptoms for

        decrease better BetterSocial anxiety
        increase worse WorseAnxious mood, Brain fog, Lethargy, Suicidal thoughts or urges
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        MatchboxLizard
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        Data Quality: 1 star
        Pain: Some
        Fatigue: Some
        Sleep: Some
        Stiffness: Most
        function: Some
        external_stress: Some
        Stickman: some
        Description:F56y
        FM:3y Dx
        I am: n
        I have:
        Fibromyalgia

        MatchboxLizard updated her symptoms for

        decrease better BetterFatigue, Headaches, Insomnia
        increase worse WorseSocial anxiety, Strain on relationship, Anxious mood, Restlessness, Persistent worry
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