I have bi-polar depression and anxiety as long as I can remember. My first thought of suicide was at the age of 4, yes that is right 4. I have general anxiety and social anxiety and am very fearful of going anywhere or doing anything. I am on a disability for serious suicide attempts and hospitalization. I take Paxil and Lorazepam.

Both my maternal and paternal sides have depression, anxiety, suicide, mental hospital stays, and tourrettes. Two of my children are deeply depresssed with anxiety, my other child has Tourrettes.