I am 36 and I am divorced. Im very outgoing and enjoy to meet others.
Not only do I have Fibro but I have SLE Lupus as well and have IBS and bladder problems as well. It is very fustrating to deal with this and at times I just wish I would go away and not deal with anything. I am a babysitter going on 4 years since this is the only job I can handle but at times even doing this job takes alot out of me. The drs believe I have had fibro and lupus for years but just found out almost 4 years ago. I had a hysterectomy about 4 and half years ago and they accidently found emterosis sorry cant spell. Now im finding out since they left my overies in they shouldnt of done that. Im very overwelmed by everyday stresses and feel like running away from everything and angry all the time. Im sore all day and feel fustrated i cant clean like i used too and I even push myself as well when I know I should slow things down a bit. I really hate sitting around and laying around when I can be doing something productive. Cleaning a regular home would take me 2 hours or less now it takes hours and I have to take several breaks. grrr. I used to be very active in my 20s and early 30s what happend to me?? I was never over weight I was very skinny and now i hate looking at myself I think i look awful. Sometimes I have to force myself to take a nap if I have enough time before i go to work. I know if I dont I will regret it later and cant function and be upset and i get overwelmed when Im very tired and worn out and I do my best to hang on and keep it together. By all means I dont flip out things just take alittle longer for me to do. I take alot out on my boyfriend slash ex husband and for a long time he was not understanding and he made this more hard on me than it was and sometimes he still does. I hope one day with all that is going on with my body I can be able to enjoy life and feel that living life isnt a burden which I feel everyday. I hope too meet other women on here who feel the same as I do. Personally Ive given up on treatment and not seen my Lupus dr in 2 years. Ive stopped meds all together only my sleeping meds and muscle relaxers. Ive even back on acid reflux meds as well. Ive had 9 cortizone shots in less than a year. I get torodol shots for migrains when needed. and Constanly taking ib profin and pre migrain meds as well. seems like im popping a pill for something. Sorry to complain its just im at my wits end. I cant afford massage which is fustrating and i cant afford the right mattress for me to sleep on . Im drinking energy drinks left and right which contains alot of sugar but need it too feel alert. Thanks for listening and hope someone out there feels the same as I do and has suggestions. Thanks Johanna from Maine
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Feb 11, 2009
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