I have struggled with my mood swings on and off for several years. I was diagnosed with epilepsy, which helped stabilize my moods for several years until I decided to go off the meds. I am a very happy, outgoing person on meds, however it has taken this long to figure out I have to pay attention to my moods and myself!
A little about me: I am absent minded at times, forgetful when I am stressed, clumsy, especially when I get tired.... I love chocolate, gummie bears, Halloween and the rain. I hate meat on a bone, most meat in general, and surprises. I would love to just take off one day and spend it visiting all the wonderful museums in D.C. or head to Phili for a history lesson. I love funky hair, but too scared to change mine. I had my babies way too early, but really do not give a damn what people think! I have struggled since the day they were born, although we have always made it, I am terrified of failing as a mommy. I have a big heart for those deserving, yet cannot forgive easily. I love the color yellow. It is bright, playful, and loving in a fun way. I melt when I get flowers for no reason, but often too big of a hard ass to admit it or busy thinking of finances to enjoy it. I would rather stay home and watch movies than go out on a romantic dinner date. Family means so much to me, yet I hardly get to see mine between school and work. I get hurt easily and I come with many insecurities, yet I am Queen of hoarding in many. I tend to blame myself for things that have nothing to do with me. I cry often and I am emotional, but I am true to my feelings. I cry alone and smile around people. My kids are amazing and soooo smart. I can be bold, outspoken, overly opinionated, brutally honest, even plain mean at times, I can admit all these things without regret. I am good to those that honestly deserve it and that is all that matters! I consider myself a good friend, but I would rather not have any friends if they are two faced or I feel they cannot be trusted. I do not pretend to be someone's friend for any reason; I am no longer in High School. That is not who I am; I speak too freely, often my biggest flaw. I taste my foot a lot! I know a lot of people do not like me and that is perfectly okay, I will not lose sleep over it, but more than likely the feelings are mutual, so watch what you say! I could eat strawberries and grapes all day and I am a sucker for Mexican food. I have a cat that keeps getting pregnant that I really cannot stand but the kids love her. I love taking road trips but hate to ride. Bubble baths with candles rock my world but I never take the time. I can cook, but never want to : ( I hate waking up early, but I drive a school bus. I love wearing high heels. Photography is fun. Memories are amazing. I think about my mother 20 times a day and talk to her every day. I write letters to her that can never be mailed out. I have many emotions that are never shared with most people that I know. I have learned that I am worth it. I have learned to be patient. I hate rude drunks but I love lemon drops. I never have enough money but I surround myself with what matters most. I can be very random at times and I love it, and then I am completely predictable at others. Inside jokes are the best and laughing solves everything. Airplanes scare the living hell out of me, but if it means I am gonna see my mom at the end, I am game! I am terrified of dying young. I want to be a mortician, but I have been in college since High School and terrified of rejection. I am happy that I am me but sometimes I want to kick my own ass!