Progressively learning how to cope with my ever changing new normal. Several yrs ago when I first realized I had autoimmune issues I researched all I could but at that time not much info was available online but I was determined not to be one of the thousands without a DX. Unfortunately many of us here are more knowledgeable than the doctors we have seen or are seeing. My hope is gone for that kind of hope. I just want to live life as best as I can. I can't be angry or sad. Pity parties come and go. This is my new normal and I struggle being part of life these days. It can be difficult in so many ways but I'm working hard at enjoying whatever I can when I can and trying new things, why not! I'm making a new bucket list.
Not seeing anymore MDs the last one is probably one of the worst, I asked him why he got into medicine and he said he got tired of not getting research money, not one word about wanting to help people. His ego was so big he ended up with a near tantrum defending the current medical model. Talking down to me poo poohing the PubMed studies and repeating he was a scientist first and only read fact based science, it was laughable, these doctors are so brainwashed from the Big Pharma influence in their medical studies at Med School. I won't put the blame all on them because they really don't know any better this failed system was taught to them, they think they're helping people, minus my last fired MD!
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Jun 22, 2011
May 04, 2017