I was diagnosed with depression/ OCD in July 2009 although have suffered for over 20 years. I have tried to commit suicide several times (one was borderline successful in November 2009). This resulted in me being admitted into a Psychiatric hospital for around 6 months. I have now been diagnosed with GAD. I am on various meds and have a care team. The meds seem to work for my depression but GAD/OCD are as bad as ever. I have suffered severe weight gain owing to my meds which is awful to live with. All my care team, when I had one, woud say is "oh well, better that than the illnesss" which is not helpful.
I have many many side effects but am not sure whether these are down to my meds or down to my GAD/OCD/Depression. Some are quite unpleasant to live with but cannot discuss these issues with my GP as I feel I am wasting their time and feel guilty about taking up the time that they could be spending with patients that have real health issues. Mea culpa should be my middle name. I no longer have CBT and no longer have a CPN.
I have recently started Dialectical Behaviour Therapy for Borderline Personality Disorder - it is very early days.
I still manage, for the most part, to hold down a voluntary job in my local hospital for 3 mornings per week (3 hours each day). I occasionally do voluntary work for our local Air Ambulance, who do wonderful, wonderful work.
I also co-ordinate a peer support project at the local psychiatric hospital (where I was a patient back in 2009/2010) and am a moderator for a local mental health forum.
I have 2 cats and they are my world. I am also married to a wonderful man who has been so supportive since I was originally diagnosed but I constantly worry that he is going to end our relationship (could be the GAD, OCD or BPD or a combination of the 3).