Have grappled with various diagnoses of mood disorders for over 30 years. Spent much of my adolescence and youth self-medicating my moods with alcohol and various drugs. Over 27 years sober now. Feel REALLY stuck. Can't cry anymore - feels like because of the meds. This cocktail of drugs has me even, but pretty numb. Have not cared about anything for a while. Actually, I care about my work. And PLM. This site and the community here have been very important to me since I joined. Not on here every day, but I do try to see what's up several times a week. Anybody welcome to PM me.
2013 Update: Relapsed on drugs beginning in 2011 and eventually drank. That's all I want to say about that right now.