I am:A list of words.
I would be doing a lot better if i could rid myself of the negative energy around me,the power of energy is very real.I crave light.
I have a respiratory infection and ear infection,the ear canal is swollen closed so i have been deaf in my left ear for 6 days.I got my antibiotics today,hoping to feel better soon but right now i fee like poo :/
This is the most debilitating disorder i live with,i gave up on getting help for my social anxiety years ago.I have never had any doctor take me seriously or put any effort into treating this or even listening to me when i try and try and try to describe/explain how it feels for me.Done.
I have never fully understood the different types of bipolar,this was my first diagnoses back in 2009 and has remained my diagnoses until 2014 when it was changed to schizoaffective bipolar type by my new PDoc.I remeber feeling very annoyed to have it changed after five years of hearing the same,yet also relieved as if maybe they have it right this time and i will get the proper treatment.Long story short,as of now,i still feel like shit and not any 'better'.
I wasn't diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder until 2014,before then it had always
been Bipolar I and i don't fully understand the different types of bipolar as it is.The new PDoc i
was seeing in 2014 felt that my bipolar I diagnoses was incorrect and that i actually have schizoaffective bipolar type.