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    jrasku was feeling neutral for

    Well earlier I was feeling better. But right now I'm kind of feeling rather tired and down. Which actually is fine. Just that I need to get to bed. It is bedtime afterall. Well it's an hour past bedtime.

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    jrasku was feeling neutral

    Today started out really not very good at all. But things have gotten really quite a bit better. I may well be starting to shift into the "going out into the big bad world, might actually be kind of cool" state.

    I did want to get something done that I haven't started. I think it will take about 20 minutes to an hour to do the whole thing. Just a little cleaning up of a project that I started working on, and then found out that I had issues with the parts involved, so the idea, is I can now reverse what I am doing.

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    jrasku was feeling bad

    Well, despite things getting better, I find that I have found that people who consider themselves to be "normal" are completely blind to the fact that they might be triggering some sort of reaction in another person, rather than that person being "mean and nasty". So when you say something that implies that someone is a complete idiot, don't be at all surprised when that person makes a comment that you find offensive. In this case my highly offensive comment was "I am probably in more pain than you are". Oh well...

    I met someone who my mum referred to as "crazy" not that long later. I really have no idea who she is. We "met" in the coffee shop. But honestly if she could be considered crazy, I have to say I haven't met a crazy person who actually scares me. Now there have been cases where I have not known how to respond to pretty extreme states, (person is yelling at someone I can't see sort of thing. I really want to respond to him, but honestly I'm not sure how to without putting myself at risk, but mainly from "helpful" "normal" people, not him. I'm not scared of him) but I've never felt that I was being threatened by anyone "crazy" in my life.

    I know that "normal" people will often say they feel threatened by "crazy" people. And, some people may well have a good reason to feel that. Which is, because they will say something highly offensive, when someone who is "crazy" responds, their response is that person is crazy, which only escalates the situation. And if they persist, they can be at legitimate risk of the person defending themselves in a violent way.

    In fact, I had someone who was "crazy" state that she wanted to rip out my heart. I wasn't actually scared of her. I just felt that there was clearly nothing I could do to help her. I really tried to find a way to help her, but I seriously doubt that there really was any way that I could. Contacting the place that actually knows how to deal with someone in that kind of crisis I was faced with "we only work with people who are here of their own free will". Which I know is entirely false, but honestly... Let's keep the message that way.

    Well, sorry, long ramble...

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    jrasku was feeling very bad

    Earlier today (when I clicked) I felt like my life was totally unlivable. Decided to play around with a few things, but so far haven't got as far as I had hoped. But hey, that actually is good. The things were really things which were on the basis of being learning experiences. So not getting there is totally fine.

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    jrasku updated the condition Myalgic Encephalomyelitis/Chronic Fatigue Syndrome

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    jrasku was feeling very bad for

    I ended up dealing with other people in ways that worked very badly. And I have no idea if, or how I can fix it. In fact, I know that I can't fix it. Because there is nothing I can do to fix it, and any time I have ever tried to fix anything that is actually "broken" in this kind of way, I have found I just make things much worse.

    I really seem to be incapable of dealing with people...

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      Ah, now I remember. I had been trying to support a project I believe in by being part of the development team. When I asked a question I had two people basically insult me for asking the question. Now had I rather simply asked the question I did, and actually explained why I was asking the question that to some might seem rather irrelevant, I would have had to spend like 500 words explaining myself.

      Now if I had done that, I would have been simply ignored. Even when I explained that what I was talking about actually was relevant, someone else basically said "no it isn't and just quit using "bad words" because "bad words" are far worse than treating a person with disrespect without the use of them."

      I can't deal with that. People who are disrespectful and actually deny that anything they are saying is disrespectful are really impossible for me to deal with.

      no I am not totally without fault. But if they actually are unwilling to admit that they were, and in a lot of cases use the fact that I am willing to admit I am against me, there is nothing good that can come of actually trying to make some kind of ammends.

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    BetterNerve pain (neuralgia), Muscle soreness, Muscle pain, Migraine headaches, Mania See more
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    jrasku was feeling bad for

    Very tired, very sore. And really want to just go to bed. Might do that soon...

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    jrasku was feeling neutral

    Getting better... But the smoke is really hard to get through.

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    jrasku was feeling bad for

    Not quite as bad as yesterday, but really low energy, and just wanting to sleep. That might be a good enough reason to go to bed now, as it is time afterall.

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