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    MatchboxLizard
    Gender: F
    Data Quality: 3 stars
    Pain: Some
    Fatigue: Most
    Sleep: Little
    Stiffness: All
    function: Some
    external_stress: Some
    Stickman: most
    Description:F57y
    FM:4y Dx
    I am: n
    I have:
    Fibromyalgia

    MatchboxLizard completed the QOL survey

    So, my SSD was approved, and I am officially "retired". Translated: I have no framework for life, not quite sure what I'm supposed to be doing, and it seems I am the healthiest person in the house, so the answer is "everything". I have no excuse for taking time for myself. That makes no sense.

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    MatchboxLizard
    Gender: F
    Data Quality: 3 stars
    Pain: Some
    Fatigue: Most
    Sleep: Little
    Stiffness: All
    function: Some
    external_stress: Some
    Stickman: most
    Description:F57y
    FM:4y Dx
    I am: n
    I have:
    Fibromyalgia

    MatchboxLizard became a 3 star data donor! star earnedstar earnedstar earned

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    MatchboxLizard
    Gender: F
    Data Quality: 3 stars
    Pain: Some
    Fatigue: Most
    Sleep: Little
    Stiffness: All
    function: Some
    external_stress: Some
    Stickman: most
    Description:F57y
    FM:4y Dx
    I am: n
    I have:
    Fibromyalgia

    MatchboxLizard updated her symptoms

    BetterMemory problems, Inability to experience pleasure (anhedonia), Headaches, Depressed mood, Cold intolerance See more
    WorseStartle easily (hyperexplexia), Sleep problems, Pain in lower back, Pain, Muscle tension See more
    NewAvoidance of situations, Anticipatory anxiety
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    MatchboxLizard
    Gender: F
    Data Quality: 3 stars
    Pain: Some
    Fatigue: Most
    Sleep: Little
    Stiffness: All
    function: Some
    external_stress: Some
    Stickman: most
    Description:F57y
    FM:4y Dx
    I am: n
    I have:
    Fibromyalgia

    MatchboxLizard updated her weight

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    MatchboxLizard
    Gender: F
    Data Quality: 3 stars
    Pain: Some
    Fatigue: Most
    Sleep: Little
    Stiffness: All
    function: Some
    external_stress: Some
    Stickman: most
    Description:F57y
    FM:4y Dx
    I am: n
    I have:
    Fibromyalgia

    MatchboxLizard completed the Mood Map survey

    • Function
    • Distress
    • External Stress
    • Depression
    • Emotional
    • Compulsion
    • Anxiety
    • Mania
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    MatchboxLizard
    Gender: F
    Data Quality: 3 stars
    Pain: Some
    Fatigue: Most
    Sleep: Little
    Stiffness: All
    function: Some
    external_stress: Some
    Stickman: most
    Description:F57y
    FM:4y Dx
    I am: n
    I have:
    Fibromyalgia

    MatchboxLizard was feeling neutral

    Little rest, very busy mind.

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    MatchboxLizard
    Gender: F
    Data Quality: 3 stars
    Pain: Some
    Fatigue: Most
    Sleep: Little
    Stiffness: All
    function: Some
    external_stress: Some
    Stickman: most
    Description:F57y
    FM:4y Dx
    I am: n
    I have:
    Fibromyalgia

    MatchboxLizard completed the PFRS survey

    • PFRS: 30
    • Fatigue: Most
    • Sleep: Little
    • Stiffness: All
    • Pain: Some
    • External Stress: Moderate

    changes in air pressure

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    MatchboxLizard
    Gender: F
    Data Quality: 3 stars
    Pain: Some
    Fatigue: Most
    Sleep: Little
    Stiffness: All
    function: Some
    external_stress: Some
    Stickman: most
    Description:F57y
    FM:4y Dx
    I am: n
    I have:
    Fibromyalgia

    MatchboxLizard updated the condition Fibromyalgia

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    • Diagnosis:

    More than a year since my last entry, and the primary treatment for my FM has failed miserably....denial of my condition is not an effective treatment. The meds that I am on seem to be doing there job, but more important than that, I must get quality sleep, and I must get a little exercise each day. Just walking a little more than I normally would during a routine day helps dial down the pain, and improves my mood.

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    MatchboxLizard
    Gender: F
    Data Quality: 3 stars
    Pain: Some
    Fatigue: Most
    Sleep: Little
    Stiffness: All
    function: Some
    external_stress: Some
    Stickman: most
    Description:F57y
    FM:4y Dx
    I am: n
    I have:
    Fibromyalgia

    Still riding the high from knowing that I can look forward to keeping a roof over our heads, and food on the table. We won't be rich, or even above poverty level, but we won't be living under a bridge. I am so grateful.

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    MatchboxLizard
    Gender: F
    Data Quality: 3 stars
    Pain: Some
    Fatigue: Most
    Sleep: Little
    Stiffness: All
    function: Some
    external_stress: Some
    Stickman: most
    Description:F57y
    FM:4y Dx
    I am: n
    I have:
    Fibromyalgia

    I have been approved for SSD, on the first try! I don't know whether to be happy that I didn't have to fight a long, protracted battle, or to be depressed because I AM that bad. There was a period of time in this process when I could tell myself that I was making way too much of this, that I wasn't as bad as I told myself I was, that if I really wanted to I could work. To have confirmation, based on objective evidence, that I am unable to hold down a job due to multiple mental and physical conditions, is really hard to grasp. Harder to swallow....

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      MatchboxLizard
      Gender: F
      Data Quality: 3 stars
      Pain: Some
      Fatigue: Most
      Sleep: Little
      Stiffness: All
      function: Some
      external_stress: Some
      Stickman: most
      Description:F57y
      FM:4y Dx
      I am: n
      I have:
      Fibromyalgia

      MatchboxLizard was feeling good for

      I have all my meds again, and the sun is shining.

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      MatchboxLizard
      Gender: F
      Data Quality: 3 stars
      Pain: Some
      Fatigue: Most
      Sleep: Little
      Stiffness: All
      function: Some
      external_stress: Some
      Stickman: most
      Description:F57y
      FM:4y Dx
      I am: n
      I have:
      Fibromyalgia

      Started a blog to talk about how I developed DID, and to share and seek support from others experiencing mental illness. Follow me at http://jennie4many.tumblr.com/

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      MatchboxLizard
      Gender: F
      Data Quality: 3 stars
      Pain: Some
      Fatigue: Most
      Sleep: Little
      Stiffness: All
      function: Some
      external_stress: Some
      Stickman: most
      Description:F57y
      FM:4y Dx
      I am: n
      I have:
      Fibromyalgia

      MatchboxLizard completed the Mood Map survey

      • Function
      • Distress
      • External Stress
      • Depression
      • Emotional
      • Compulsion
      • Anxiety
      • Mania

      Dreading SSD exam.

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      MatchboxLizard
      Gender: F
      Data Quality: 3 stars
      Pain: Some
      Fatigue: Most
      Sleep: Little
      Stiffness: All
      function: Some
      external_stress: Some
      Stickman: most
      Description:F57y
      FM:4y Dx
      I am: n
      I have:
      Fibromyalgia

      MatchboxLizard was feeling neutral

      Numb surface with fast running currents over all....I cannot concentrate, or connect to things I know that I know....I open software that I have used many times, and cannot remember how to manipulate it. I don't know why. I'm taking my meds, but I haven't been able to see my psych for a long time. I don't have insurance, and can't afford to get insurance, despite the best intentions of our president. Each day I push to try to rise to the surface, but I keep sinking lower all the time. Saturday I have an appointment for my SSD exam, and I have no idea how I am going to cope with it. It feels like everyone is heading for the exits, and no one is left in the control room. How do I explain to a professional that he will have to leave a message, and I will get back to him....especially since I am sitting there in front of him? I have spent a lifetime keeping people from seeing the fractures, noticing the differences, realizing that I am something different, someone different, and now I am supposed to willingly reveal myself, (selves) to a stranger? And a man?
      This is more than I can take....

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      MatchboxLizard
      Gender: F
      Data Quality: 3 stars
      Pain: Some
      Fatigue: Most
      Sleep: Little
      Stiffness: All
      function: Some
      external_stress: Some
      Stickman: most
      Description:F57y
      FM:4y Dx
      I am: n
      I have:
      Fibromyalgia

      MatchboxLizard updated her symptoms for

      BetterSuicidal thoughts or urges, Startle easily (hyperexplexia), Social anxiety, Sleep problems, Sleep disturbances See more
      WorseRestlessness, Problems concentrating, Persistent worry, Memory problems, Lethargy See more
      NewInflammation
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      MatchboxLizard
      Gender: F
      Data Quality: 3 stars
      Pain: Some
      Fatigue: Most
      Sleep: Little
      Stiffness: All
      function: Some
      external_stress: Some
      Stickman: most
      Description:F57y
      FM:4y Dx
      I am: n
      I have:
      Fibromyalgia

      I feel empty, useless....like a husk. Achy, sore, hurting...but cannot muster the energy to care.

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      MatchboxLizard
      Gender: F
      Data Quality: 3 stars
      Pain: Some
      Fatigue: Most
      Sleep: Little
      Stiffness: All
      function: Some
      external_stress: Some
      Stickman: most
      Description:F57y
      FM:4y Dx
      I am: n
      I have:
      Fibromyalgia

      MatchboxLizard updated the condition Dissociative Identity Disorder

      • First symptom:
      • Diagnosis:

      Like a blended coffee drink at the moment...but let it set for awhile and it will begin to show the many layers....

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      MatchboxLizard
      Gender: F
      Data Quality: 3 stars
      Pain: Some
      Fatigue: Most
      Sleep: Little
      Stiffness: All
      function: Some
      external_stress: Some
      Stickman: most
      Description:F57y
      FM:4y Dx
      I am: n
      I have:
      Fibromyalgia

      MatchboxLizard was feeling bad for

      Numbed out, and depressed. I have an appointment for a physical exam for my SSD determination, and I'm afraid I won't be "disabled" enough to get SSD, but too messed up to be able to go back to work. Plus groceries are low, and still another week to get through before my check comes in. Life seems pointless.

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      MatchboxLizard
      Gender: F
      Data Quality: 3 stars
      Pain: Some
      Fatigue: Most
      Sleep: Little
      Stiffness: All
      function: Some
      external_stress: Some
      Stickman: most
      Description:F57y
      FM:4y Dx
      I am: n
      I have:
      Fibromyalgia

      MatchboxLizard updated her basic information

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      MatchboxLizard
      Gender: F
      Data Quality: 3 stars
      Pain: Some
      Fatigue: Most
      Sleep: Little
      Stiffness: All
      function: Some
      external_stress: Some
      Stickman: most
      Description:F57y
      FM:4y Dx
      I am: n
      I have:
      Fibromyalgia

      MatchboxLizard updated the condition Generalized Anxiety Disorder

      • First symptom:
      • Diagnosis:

      I think this is part of my fibro, not necessarily a separate condition. It was diagnosed because it was a piece my doctor had a code for. Having said that, anxiety is and always has been part of my genetic make up, like the color of my hair. It is a necessary component of hypervigilance, which will be the death of me. My body is in a permanent state of alertness, watching for danger. Hard on the organs...

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