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    depressed_to_death
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    38 M
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    Distress: High
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    Major Depressive Disorder

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    depressed_to_death
    Sex: M
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    38 M
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    Distress: High
    I am: b
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    Major Depressive Disorder

    a lot of pressure from the family to move back .. and it's sort of breaking me down .. I know I will eventually move back .. I'm too much of a wuss to make it on my own .. life can be very unfair and cruel, at times .. I was never taught that ..

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      depressed_to_death
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      Emotional: 3
      Anxiety: 3
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      38 M
      Function: Low
      Distress: High
      I am: b
      I have:
      Major Depressive Disorder

      depressed_to_death was feeling neutral for

      a very long conversation with the family, today .. I felt I'm making some progress .. they're realizing they can't bully me around, anymore ..

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        depressed_to_death about 22 hours ago

        they've been apologizing for some stuff .. and recognizing that they weren't supportive enough .. but they still don't understand that the way I was treated was abusive .. and it's been very traumatic for me ..

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      depressed_to_death
      Sex: M
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      Mania: 2
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      Anxiety: 3
      Compulsion: 3
      External Stress: Severe
      38 M
      Function: Low
      Distress: High
      I am: b
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      Major Depressive Disorder

      family putting a lot of pressure on me to move back .. the pressure is just too much, I'm going to break ..

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        depressed_to_death 5 days ago

        that's another problem .. I don't know what's best for me .. I've been asked by friends, family, skrinks saying "meds can only do so much .. you have out what makes you happy" and do it .. but there's no thing or place that makes me happy .. emoticon sad

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      depressed_to_death
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      Emotional: 3
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      External Stress: Severe
      38 M
      Function: Low
      Distress: High
      I am: b
      I have:
      Major Depressive Disorder

      last night, went out to dinner with a friend .. and saw an ex .. my heart broke!!!

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        depressed_to_death
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        my sister's wronged me, in so many ways .. emoticon sad

        I think the last time she called me was like a year ago ..

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        38 M
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        depressed_to_death was feeling bad for

        in the evening, started thinking about my sister .. who's been totally unfair to me, ever since our mom died .. and emotionally abusive .. wrong in her attitude, wrong financially, just everything .. and it was so unfair ..

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        the day just went by so fast ..

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          depressed_to_death
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          went shopping with a couple of cousins .. was feeling woozy but had a great time .. it was a nice distraction from the normal crap of life ..

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          my sister has really wronged me ..

          you never ever should promise someone something you can't do for them, or give them ..

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          had a really nice dream with mom ..

          unfortunately, had to wake up and realize it was just a dream .. emoticon sad

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            depressed_to_death
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            38 M
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            seeing all the "happy mother's day" messages whose moms' are still alive kind of bummed me out .. tried to stay off facebook .. went out in the evening .. not a lot of fun .. it was really hot ..

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              38 M
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              does the pain ever go away? ..

              meds can't help .. they can't change your life's circumstances ..

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                depressed_to_death about 2 weeks ago

                meds are basically making up for the serotonin right? .. so say someone's gone through a divorce, will their body's natural ability to make serotonin diminish? .. and hence the need for pain killers?

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                depressed_to_death 13 days ago

                i'm doing, ok .. @cntygirl .. I'm just sort of numb .. have you ever seen anyone go on to these serotonin meds and get better and go back to a "normal" life ..

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              shakespeare said life's either a comedy or a tragedy .. mine seems to be a combination of both .. call me a "cry baby" .. but I just can't handle it ..

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              38 M
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              some days, just really REALLY miss mom .. emoticon sad

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                depressed_to_death about 2 weeks ago

                when you're young, your parents tell you life is going to be tough .. you don't realize it till they're gone just how tough .. I struggle to get through the day, everyday .. love when it's the end of the day and I can go to sleep .. and forget about everything for a while .. really marvel at people who handle it all so well ..

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              crap, now have to deal with all the customs and crappy paperwork for all my stuff that I had shipped back .. anyway, I'm telling myself one thing at a time ..

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