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lilybet
Gender: F
Data Quality: 1 star
Major Depressive Disorder
Depression: 1
Mania: 0
Emotional: 1
Anxiety: 1
Compulsion: 0
External Stress: Overwhelming
Rx Therapy
57 F
Function: Moderate
Distress: Low

lilybet

Female, 57 years
Natick, MA

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About lilybet

I'm a freelance illustrator. Usually vibrant and energetic, I've had health issues that brought my life & career to a halt for a while and have recently done so again. I've learned to live with lupus and fibromyalgia. Depression hovers at the edges and sometimes becomes full-blown. 

Breast cancer in 2005 was devastating. In June-July 2011, I had with thyroid cancer, leading to a thyroidectomy and radioactive iodine treatment. 

Unexpectedly, I got very sick in the summer of 2012. Eventually I was diagnosed as having had viral meningitis from an enterovirus. It left me with permanent migraine-like headaches. It has ruined my life as I know it, after working so hard to improve it. The daily pain is extremely wearing.

Life is hard; I'm always rebuilding, and sometimes I get tired of it all. I've had tough but great therapy, trying to learn to handle challenges better and reduce stress so I don't feel so overwhelmed. It's not easy. I've had WAY more than my fair share.

Now, in the summer of 2013, I'm returning to Mindfulness practice in an attempt to get a handle on my severe depression because of the headache pain. I'm also going for intensive therapy... I have to find a way to enjoy life again. 

An additional source of depression is my fear of dating... I've avoided it completely because I don't believe that anyone would want me if they knew my medical history. I fear that I will spend the rest of my life alone.

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Last Login Nov 17, 2013