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Gender: F
Data Quality: 0 stars
phobic disorder
Depression: 3
Mania: 2
Emotional: 4
Anxiety: 4
Compulsion: 2
External Stress: Overwhelming
Rx Therapy
31 F
Function: Low
Distress: High


Female, 31 years
Jacksonville, FL

Primary condition
Phobic disorder and 6 more
First symptom
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About FataleNoir

My main diagnoses is Generalized Anxiety Disorder with a nice piggy back of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. My life is a constant struggle to deal with my symptoms while keeping stability within myself and my home life. I am currently enrolled in school to receive my PhD in Complex Brain Systems. I am completely immersing myself in the study and research aspect of psychological disorders. I love my dog more than I love myself.

I have an intense fear of abandonment which is both real and unreasonable. I hold on to emotionally destructive relationships that I try and rationalize and have a constant fear of healthy relationships leaving me. I struggle with self-image and often degrade my self. Some days I look in the mirror and love how I look and feel confident in my person as a whole and other days I avoid mirrors and spend the day questioning my self worth. I tend to go between thinking my relationships are amazing to devaluing them and almost purposely causing destruction due to my inability to accept that I am worthy of love and happiness. I tend to be emotionally unstable and can go from extreme feelings of happiness to intense anger in a matter of moments with no real trigger. I experience mood swings that tend to be emotionally abuse to those around me. I am guilty of displacement and often direct my anger towards things that weren't the cause of my anger in the first place. I also tend to psychologically project emotions.I have a hard time accepting I am to blame and tend to accuse others of absurd things to justify my own thoughts and actions. I experience intense anxiety over the smallest obstacles and have to pace myself to avoid panic. I require a great deal of support and constant reassurance from loved ones.I experienced a very emotionally and psychologically abused childhood at the hands of my Mother that started from her drug abuse in the womb and continues to last til today. I no longer let her in my life and I have been a happier person because of it. She also suffers from severe mental illness. I have been through emotional abuse, neglect, physical abuse, sexual abuse, and damaging events throughout my life that I hope one day I will learn to effectively cope with so that I can become a happier healthy individual. I wish I had one friend in the world.

My amazing Father

Puppy Love...


He's my reason for living.

I play online Scrabble for fun and yes.. I would kick your butt!

I'm the kind of girl that likes ice in my milk, pulp in my orange juice, and whiskey in my Coke.

-Loves Framboise Lambec.

-Has a weird obsession with celebrity gossip.

-Coffee fiend. I NEED coffee.

-Is the kind of person to get into a 3 hour discussion on the sexual habits of goats.

-Loves to cook.

-Would like herself and everyone around her to be laughing..constantly.

-Wants to get married and have a family someday.

- Has a diagnosed phobia of spiders.

- Huge computer nerd!

- Horror movie buff.

- Is as cheesy as cheesy gets.

- Has a dry sense of humor.. that can sometimes be offensive.

- Is afraid of the things that go bump in the night.

- Is obsessed with knowledge. Wants to know anything and everything about ALLsubjects. Space, Time, Animals, The Mind, ect ect.


Comments: 40 updates, 10 for others
Member since: Jun 22, 2010
Last Login Mar 25, 2016

Other conditions

  1. Alcohol use disorder
    First symptom
  2. Borderline personality disorder
  3. Generalized anxiety disorder
  4. Obsessive compulsive personality disorder
  5. Schizophrenia
  6. Tobacco use disorder
    First symptom