I am currently a caregiver at a nursing home, and have been for the last 2 years. My father passed away when I was 17 (just as I started my senior year of high school). The last 10+ years have been a blur with a lot of manic behaviors and several severe depression episodes. I went to seek treatment a few months ago when I felt as though I could not control my tongue and feared that my job and marriage could be at jeopardy if I lashed out verbally (which kept feeling easier and easier to do). I have also been a smoker for the last 10 years, which is another thing I am trying to control.