This illness just sucks. I lost my husband of 16 years to it. My children are so angry and they just can't understand me at all. Bri is 15, Chris is 16. I'm not allowed to talk about anything, yet they get upset when I fall, if I can't remember, etc. My son is usually wonderful, I just recently fell down the stairs the Wednesday between Christmas and New Year and he made me go to the ER the next day. Today is 2/6 and I still have a bruise on the outside where my kidney is. Doc's at ER said the kidney was swollen, and obviously it's bruised, because I still have the bruise on the outside.