Dealt with depression since I was at least 19. Now am 41. Took me a long time to realize that antidepressants were going to be part of my life probably forever. Try to remain positive, wake up with joy every morning. I've had a lot of loss in my life and trying to heal. Found my high school sweetheart after 20 years and he's in the process of healing my heart. Love music, God, friends, and family. I was adopted as a baby and didn't know this until my brother told me at age 21. Found birth family w/ others with depression and suicide.