Lately, the apathy is getting worse, worse, growing in severity. I have been taken off Hospice management and am not being treated according to my wishes in my living will. I have my DNR posted and am ready for God to take me home whenever he is ready for me. I was so relieved to have palliative care in my home, and they took it from me because Medicare had cutbacks and I was not losing weight like they thought I should. I am pulling away from everyone in my life, and I am so sorry. I cry a lot.