Even tho I have been plagued by both physical and psychiatric problems for many years I have a good life. The physical are a result, for the most part, of the abuse I suffered for the first 20+ years of my life at the hands of both parents, at home and in a Satanic cult. I have been diagnosed with DID and have integrated, at least it is under control. Chronic depression and dissociation are part of daily life, I have learned to keep doing something so as not to become a vegetable. Few understand the energy it takes to maintain both physical and mental illness successfully, I'm always tired.