I have had trouble most of my life when I look back now.Now I have been having trouble the last 4 months with my depression.Right now they have increased my medication 3 times in that period. I have been not able to work,(just found out I lost my job,which I knew would happen) people and noise and pressure are really affecting me right now. I am just so tired, and emotionless, except when crying. I would really like to be well, and not feel so blah all the time. Wish I had more energy too. I dont know what I want anymore.Then certain family members dont understand and are not helping, so I
have basically shut them out cause I cannot deal with them. I wish I had a hole to crawl in and hide and hibernate until I feel better. Death sounds so good sometimes, but really what is there to expect after that? Nothing. At least I have to keep trying, something and someday will com hopefully that I will feel better again.
Jun 24, 2009
May 18, 2010