My name is Edward G. Fleming and I go by Edward and not Ed. I suffer from some kind of mental illness, which is probably Schizoaffective Disorder, Bipolar Type (different psychiatrist give me different diagnoses at different times in my life.) I have never use street drugs or alcohol. Now with the help, love, and aid of family, friends, a support team of psychiatric professionals, and with taking my medication, I am doing much better.

In my early twenty's in 1977, I was doing GREAT in College, double majoring in Mathematics and Electrical Electronic Engineering and in the top 1% of my class when I started having problems with a deep dark depression. That deep dark depression would come and go as it pleased. Then in contrast I started having manic episodes, also. During one of the manic episodes I have had very little sleep, I probably slept about five hours during a period of about a week. During that time I thought I was a god with all kinds of supernatural powers and didn't need to sleep. Being a god I felt I needed to find a solution to the world's nuclear war problem. I didn't solve anything, but I got myself thrown in jail and after jail I went to a Behavioral Heath Unit (Psych. Hospital). While in contrast to being manic, I have been so depressed that I had taken to my bed for weeks. While at other times my mood has swung violently and raptly during the course of a signal day. I also have been paranoid, thinking that I was being hunted down to be killed by the senior pastor of a local mega-church because he did not want an affair with my wife to go public, (I believe now, that none of this were ever true.) Also I have believed that I was the anti-Christ who's number is 666 in the book of Revelation in the Bible (I no longer believe this, either.) At times I have had strong thoughts that I don't feel were mine own. I have gone through all of this without ever taking any street drugs or alcohol.

A little more about myself; when I am not suffering with my symptoms of mental illness, I enjoy working with my robot, studying and doing math, writing books (I have published five books), writing computer programs, and thinking about God stuff.

I am trying to worship God. I not saying that I am always successful at this, but I am trying. I believe in the forces of good and evil and in the power of love, compassion, endurance, patience, mercy, grace, justice, righteousness, charity, tenderness, wisdom, and everything that causes good to happen. I have no religious agenda, other than to say "I am not God." I believe Hell to be a place of GREAT SUFFERING that one can't figure out how to get out (A Hell here on Earth,) for no other reason than my suffering in this life has been so great, that this must be what Hell is like or at lease as close to Hell as I ever want to get. I believe in God for no other reason than I want there to be a God. But the God that I believe in, is not like us, He is more like Spirit of all truth, knowledge, all the laws that govern all things, love, compassion, and caring force behind all that is good. The way I see God is that He is Spirit and not a being, like Santa Clause can be viewed as the spirit of giving gifts at Christmas time and not an actual being. Dualist Pantheist Christian best describe my beliefs about God, if this is possible.

There are two major positive things that I have learned in life and they are: (1.) To keep the main thing, the main thing, which is to love God with all my heart, soul, and mind. (2.) To love others as I would have them love me.

To read more of my life buy my book: Autobiography by Edward G. Fleming on amazon.com.