People would never know I have low self esteem and am depressed most of the time. I always put on a happy face for family and friends. I am an attractive widow and have no problem finding male friends.....I was raised by my single father from the age of 12.....and am more comfortable around men than women. I am critical of others but no more than I am of myself. I am a Christian who attends church regularly and find morality to be difficult. I have a loving relationship with a wonderful man who treats me like a queen