I am 39 year old Massage, Sports, Physical Therapist. I am married with 2 lovely daughters with my oldest daughter being Bipolar as well. I have had Bipolar all of my life but was actually diagnosed until I was around 14. My husband and daughters are very supportive and understanding of this illness. But, I know it is hell living with me. I have no idea who I am. I am just here and barely able to function...each day is a struggle to move. I am medicated and this is the best I ever felt. I feel like crap. I am not suicidal but do have tendencies to cut. Hope to hear from others.