Married to my HS sweetheart. We have 2 sons, 2 daughters-in-law, 5 grandkids, 1 Beagle & various #'s of cats. We live on 22 acres. We have a wide variety of friends. I've always loved arts, crafts, sewing & quilting. I've worked "real" jobs just to help with finances but not really for personal fulfillment!! I love to dream up things, create things, & often get awesome ideas but just don't know what to do with them. I also like to talk. My 1st bad depression was in 6th grade - but hadn't been on any meds until I was 40.

The 1st medication I took was Amitriptyline prescribed by my PCNP, I was on that for a long time, but I still had mood swings.  Then later I was sent to my 1st PMHNP, she said I had Cyclothymia & put me on a Zoloft/Neurontin combo which was wonderful for about 5-6 yrs, then I started having mood swings again, mainly depression.  Went to another PMHNP and he tried Lexapro, then added Lamictal, without much luck.  Then he changed me to Cymbalta and I did feel better until another dip..., then another... by this time it had been almost a year since I'd really felt on top of things so during another big dip my husband went with me and as I sobbed, slumped in the corner, I told my PCNP that I felt like I needed to drive into a brick wall in order for anyone to take a serious look at what I'm going through and fix it.  She suggested that I go into IN PATIENT mental health at the hospital....... oh heck I think I'm just going to start a blog about all this!!!  http://www.patientslikeme.com/forum/show/62809 I have to post this link to my blog post or I forget how to find me ;~) and here's my memories journal http://www.patientslikeme.com/forum/show/64546