I'm a wild and crazy gal, at least I used to be. I have bipolar I and GAD and am pretty stable these days. I love animals, especially dogs and have a Shetland Sheepdog (mini collie) named Pepper; also have a rabbit, hamsters and guinipig. I want friends who are like me......
Im the youngest of 7 children in my family. Parents were alcoholics and were also adult children too (their parents were alcoholics). I used drugs and drank a lot. Now, I still smoke cigarettes and they are killing me. I must quit.
Had my first manic breakdown (paronoid, hearing voices, etc...in Aug.1982 (did pot & hash daily during teenyrs. & some hard drugs occasionally) Was only 18. spent 9 wks in psych.ward. In 1984 lived in halfway homes, then group homes for over 3yrs. Worked for 10 yrs. Stayed fairly stable only taking antidepresent clonipramine (anafranil)l 50mg. Drank alcohol excessively during my 20s. Managed to stay out of hospital for a long time.
In 1991, was put on clonazipam. In 1996, put on lithium for 1st time. Started on 600mg, then up to 900mg. Had 2 children between 1997-2000. Went back on lithium after having children in 2001. Stilll on it. Anafranil went up in dose to 100 mgs. I got married in 1997 to a wonderful loving man named Jim. He's very understanding & patient with me.
Have been seeing my psychiatrist for over 23yrs. and was fed up with being on lithium (weight gain, water retension, tired, lethargic etc....) Never was I labelled as bipolar. Pdoc always told me I had anxiety/depression. With advice from my theripist and others, I requested to my pdoc that he send over a referreral for me to get admitted to the local mental health hospital to be re-assessed. Best thing I ever did! Stayed for 1 month in the Intensive Assessment (was self admitted) went home weekends. New pdocs told me in 5 days that I was BIPOLAR 1. Wow...never had I been told that. My pdoc just treated my symptoms all those years. Life has been slightly easier now that I know my diagnosis. Only change in meds. was upping the lithium 1200, anafranil stayed same, and suggested I slowly come off of clonazipam (only take as a prn, hardly ever do.)
Knowing my diagnosis makes theripy and coping daily a lost easier. I'm easier on myself. Dont get as many lows as I did.
Looking forward to communicating to you all, to learn about others with same/similar symptoms, etc.
Blessings, Lorry <><
Nov 16, 2008
Nov 12, 2009