I am a 56 yo artist, always been a tad different, come from a bad gene pool father a drunk mother depression ect. Adopted at birth into a not so good life, so breeding and inviroment = me. Addicted to everything, except chewing gum,Have been afforded some great opportunities in my life, Blew them all. One step away from being homless.Need to turn my life around NOW. no ,more options. I would welcome death with both arms, but have 3 sons that love me dearly and dear friends. god bless us all in this daily battle called life.