Retired military with four duaghters, ages 21-30, two are married and two are still attending college. I have been positive for a good many years and learned all about this disease. How its contracted, what it does to your body, and on the mind. Doctors have helped with bringing the disease well under control. However I find it is my spirit that has continually suffered and as result has left me feeling empty. So at this point I am enrolling in a bible college to see if I can find the words or wisdom to help me heal my spirit.