I am a male now in the autumn of my life, I have serious and life threatening illness but come through the worst and the best. I am mentally, physicaly and sexually scared from a life time of abuse and yes probably because of early intervention in my life it would be fair to say that I am deeply institutionalised. I live my life one day at a time "carpe diem" being my motto.
Beccause of early abuse I have continual pain from old breaks to the bones and jionts that were pulled often out of line. Due to an acident whilst I was 16 I develped epilepsy which took a long time to stabalise. Time spent in critical care and hospital during the diagnostic stages took its toll as well as public humiliation in the 1960's consequently lead to a mental breakdown when I was only 17 I spent 2-3 years in psyciatric hospital but to no avail. It was only very late on in life did I realise I am Bipolar in a mild form and now realise it is at least 75% upto me to learn how to cope with my life with it, his I am doing through self help groups and regular visits to the shrink. Because my epilepsy was bad early in the 21st century when I eventualy lived on my own it was decided that I should enter into care via a nursing home 24/7 care system which seems to working out as my major seizures have now stopped, I still see the nuerologist anualy and some of my medication is now being reduced, as it was diagnosed that I may be bi-polar the valproate was reduced at first but increased again some 3 months later. I had a ruptered anuerism (abdominal aortic) in 2009 I was lucky that I was rushed to hospital had emergency surgery where a intracoronary stent was inserted and I spent 2 months in critical care in a drug induced coma, after discharge it took me 2-3 months to be able to walk and do most of the things for myself. Later on I had an EMI scan on my left knee where it was revealed that I had very bad arthritis and a split ligament surgery was considered to invasive at that time and was treated with steriod shots into the jionts. A further EMI scan on my spine revealed the damage done by osteoporosis arounf t3-7 was crompressed fractured and around T5 I had a disc bulge compressing my spinal cord treatment was and is just pain releif as I considered injections directly into the spine to invasive and not worth the risk of ending up in wheelchair for the rest of my life, when in bed if I lay wrongly I get numbness and pins and needles in my feet and leg depandant on which side I am lying. Recent buiding works to my homme enviroment introduced a lot of ust back into the enviroment this made my breathing bad again and I feared a return of my COPD however this was not the case I was diagnosed with idiopathic pulmaonary fibrosis this is helped with the use of a salbutomol inhaler via a volumatic device. Finally IN 2010 I was diagnosed with catarcts (probably steriod induced as oposed to age related) in 2012 I had one operation on my left eye which was sucsessful and I am just waiting to have the right one done hopefully this week on the 15th June 2012.I had my right cataract removed with some minor infections to it now I find I am sensitive to bright light and use anti glare specs for my computer and transitions for my outdoor pair
2 years on from cataract surgery I am having to elect for more treatment to my left eye most surgeons in the UK use the ECCE procedure which leaves a small amount of the cataract left so that the lens can have something to attach itself to however about every two years the patient is presented with burred vision the result of such is to make a hole in the lens using a laser so I am having to go forward for this treatment, also my eyelid is now droopy and needs so much of the skin cut away another surgery to look forward to .