Before my diagnosis I didn't know what was wrong. I had chronic extreme pain that was so bad I could barely turn myself over in bed. I went to many specialist receiving the same diagnosis of Fibromyalgia, but hoping with each new specialits to get a diagnosis that came with a cure. I had to stop work and start a whole new life. I was depressed due to pain and fatigue and loss of income and social life. I have a new life that I enjoy more than the one I had. I breed parrots and have parrots for pets. Handfeeding babies each breeding season brings me the most joy. I still struggle with sleep. I was hospitalized six years ago for 5 weeks with a severe case of the shingles. It took years to recover from that. I was prescribed multiple high doses of narcotic pain relievers. The man I had been living with for 13 years became an abusive alcoholic and my stress level became extreme and having been assaulted and nearly killed by my ex-husband 15 years ago I took this new threat very seriously. I left Maryland and returned to my home state of Georgia. When I finally got in to see a pain management specialist here I was told if I stayed on the narcotic medications and the muscle relaxer I was on I would be dead in less than ten years. He cut me off cold turkey and going through withdrawal was horrific. It took two months to get through that completely. I still have moderate to severe pain every day even with the different non-narcotic medications and no muscle relaxers I am currently on. I still have great difficulty sleeping. I am told it can take up to six months to completely recover from the medications I was on. I am trying to be patient and I have family helping me now.
This will have to wait. Just the amount I've already sat an typed has increased my pain. In short for now. I try hard to remain optomistic. I have some very depressing days and I hide how I feel from everyone, but one person. I don't want to complain or be labeled as a whiner.
Dec 06, 2011
Mar 05, 2013