Born with CP, had lots of different therapies to 'appear normal' when younger. I have been verbally abused most of my life from family members (still am), and from peers (in school when younger). In ways of trying to deal with being abused I have overate, smoked weed, got drunk, smoked ciggs, suicidal, self harmed since 11 yrs of age (currently havent for one year and 8 months, but I think about it every week), and have had inappropriate relationships in search of love. My current counselor has diagnosed me with severe dissociation.