I have lived a full, fun life but have been stricken with fibromylgia, chronic fatigue, and severe insomnia. I have been suffering now with all of it for about 5 years and even with treatment, I am not finding relief. I had more than fatigue as an onset sympton. I once was active, kayaking, swimming, traveling, going to concerts; but now my life is very much changed. I want to find a treatment that will allow me to be what I was and do what I once did. I love doing things with friends, traveling and just having fun. I just want those days back, free of pain meds and long days in bed.
This is my testimony:
I was a drug addict, alcoholic and everything else that came along with that lifestyle. I have been clean and sober for SEVEN years now. I was DELIVERED from ALL of from a complete surrender of MY life to GOD’S will. I lived my way for over 20 years in emotional pain, mental agony and insanity. I was a crack addict, smoking and mainlining cocaine. I had Budweiser for breakfast and Crown Royal for dinner. Due to my insanity, even though I own my home, I chose to live out of my car, going from crack house, party or wherever I could get high. After two failed marriages, I was at an all time low. I attempted suicide many times over the years, the last time I actually died, was revived and in a coma for over a day. I have been committed to psych wards, gone to jail and been on probation. Later, it was the death of my friend, in my arms, from an overdose that sent me over the edge and landed me in the psych ward for over a week suffering from post trauma and many other mental disorders. I was also finally properly diagnosed with bipolar disorder, which they say I had probably had been since a teenager which had caused all my suicide attempts, self-destructive behavior and to self medicate with drugs and alcohol. This is a common problem I would soon find out among many substance abusers. When the treatment finally started working and my mind became freer, God made it very clear about what He wanted for my life. I had two choices...life or death. Death was not an option anymore. I had experienced it, not once (mine) but twice (my friend); and it was not pretty. My friend was not saved when she died, in fact she was one of the most tormented souls I can remember, besides myself, and my guilt of her death ran deep. I needed healing, I wanted more of God, I needed Him, and He was the only answer.
I found the New Life Christian Recovery Program in Enterprise, Alabama and voluntarily admitted myself. There I was able to find answers, understand myself, and deal with the profound issues of my diseases, disorders and spiritual deprivation. Beginning to heal, my calling became clear and I remained after graduation to work for the Center over 2 years. I was able to help others find their way to Christ and deliverance from the "hells" they had created for themselves. I wanted to enlighten them about mental health issues in relation to drug addiction. What better way to heal yourself than to help others in the same situation.
I finally returned to my hometown and through hard work and perseverance, I graduated with an AA from TCC on May 1, 2010. I was making all A’s in my classes, have a high GPA and was been on the college president’s list every semester, graduating on the deans list. Not bad for a burnout! Yet, none of this of my doing...GOD MUST get all the praise and glory because I would not be here IF NOT FOR HIM.
I will hopefully be pursuing a major in social work at FSU to achieve a BSW. My objective is to understand my own behaviors and those of others in the fields of addiction recovery and mental health (co-occurring disorders/ dual diagnosis). With this knowledge, my own personal testimony and my faith in God, I will be more effective in helping others. Also as a Christian, by getting my degrees, I will be positioned to better assist people in this field through spiritual guidance and prayer, in addition to traditional treatment. My ultimate goal is to let God use this all and me for His glory, as tool to help someone that needs DELIVERANCE FROM THEIR HELL ON EARTH that will only come through the salvation of Jesus Christ. I am hoping that they will see that they are no different than me or anyone else that was trapped in or "bound up" by addiction and all the painful consequences. I can tell you that I have been there, I have looked death in the face and there is HOPE and a life without DOPE every day. A life filled with LOVE, PEACE, JOY AND A PURPOSE. My prayer is that no one else dies from dope without the knowing this and the love of God.
If you need help with addiction or someone you love is in need of help, please contact me and I can refer you to many free faith-based programs in your region. You can also contact New Life at ww.christmissions.com
Sep 11, 2010
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