Before I got FM I was a competing bodybuilder state level, last competition was 2000. I weighed in at 108 lbs body fat a single digit %. I also took weekly advanced ballet classes and pointe, taught begining ballet for adults and aerobic classes for the community education program in Nashville TN. While doing all these activities I worked full time for the usps mostly night shifts. My off season weight (not competition) was around the 125-130 lbs range.
My social life involved going out to night clubs to dance, attending other fitness events and performances of ballet.
Now I can no longer do any of these activities and am filing for a disability retirement. My depression was so severe last year I checked myself into a hospital because I was afraid I would kill myself because of my unclear thinking process. My self image and self esteem are at rock bottom. Being able to share and join other FM sites to talk to others is what keeps me going.
Aug 28, 2010
Oct 22, 2010