I am single with NF1 (Neurofibromatosis). I have Essential Hypertension, Malignant, scoliosis, a clubbed right hand. I have Chronic Kidney Disease and renal artery stenosis. Only have one kidney too. I suffer from Bi Polar 1 and many other issues too. I have to say that there are not to many days I do not think about killing myself, or wanting to die. It is hard to even try most days. And being single and not having anyone in my life is not helping either. I miss my twins sons. But know that I can not live with the ex to be with them. So that is really hard for me too.