I feel like I've just been stuck in a fucked state for days, I get weird manic excited then depressed miserable all in the same day

I feel sick, manic and like Im striving for something to make me feel better. Didnt want to do my homework, I'm almost done though. Im achey and Im in a weird mood where I dont know what will make me feel better

Kind of nervous and quiet today, kind of nervous but pleased with my summer course, lots of work but i know I'll learn a lot

happy/grateful to be hanging out with andrue on his last day! little bit anxious!

Depressed about another life change, school ended and I'm moving out of my apartment soon, moving back home for the summer, then going back to school in the fall for my final semester. One of my best friends is graduating and moving away and I've been dreading the day for a while now and have been stressed, had to say goodbye to him today. I think that's why I've been so stressed out this last week, my relationships mean so much so me, especially when they have built up for so long. I don't feel comfortable around many people, and feel alone.

Really hard on myself, I want to quit painting so mad. Inner dilemma about if I should keep painting. I feel like I fucking suck at it and its not what I was meant to do. I literally can not see the point. I feel like no one takes me seriously as an artist and I want to change that but I always just want to disappear.

Feel a little weird anxious, drank coffee for once? I don't know why i did that. Feeling really weird socially, I feel the answer is to isolate and focus. I am noticing the strong pulls I have to get up when I am in the middle of doing something

Good, slept till one today though =/ my schedule is kind of messed up

I feel a little depressed today for some reason.. I passed in my short story last night and I really didn't think I would! Which is great cause I thought I had to flip and take medication today in order to finish it, I was starting to feel dependent. I should be proud of myself for working on it despite feeling so depressed stuck, and down on myself last night. I feel like I'm having identity problems at the moment, feeling like a hollow shell and fake.

Puking again