My name is Tina im 24 years old i had 2 kids and a good boyfriend for almost 5 years. Untill my recent MANIC eppisode where I broke up with the kid's dad then gave the kids to there grandmother for there own good. Also havnt been on meds in about 8 moths switched to self medicating with methamphetamines. Really just sick and tired of being bipoler, sick of not knowing how im gonna feel one day to the next, tired of not being in controll of me, tired of hurting everyone that cares about me. I think I should just RUN AWAY at this point. update I lost my family/ gave them up. Now im alone, just.

I grew up in Humboldt County CA and still live here now. Seems impossible to pull myself away. Everytime i move away I end up right back here in this hell hole. I moved to RENO, NV and started from scratch didnt know anyone I got a job, got an apartment of my own, i had alot of fun there. I did manage to stay there for 2 years, but then I found out I was pregnant and ran right back here. Everytime i get slightly scared/starteld I run Home. 

 I didnt want my kids to grow up the same way i did. So I finally just decided its better for them to be with someone who can give them the life they deserve. There grandparents on there dads side are giving them that life. Stability,love,rutine,education,fun,quality time,and dicipline oh and what I can never give then witch is stable parenting. I cant even keep myself together or take care of myself most of the time. Let alone another person.