depressed and anxious

my pdoc is an idiot. Im moving to another clinic. love my therapist though.

no room for me as an inpatient. also an shortage of pdocs. so I have to suffer at home, waiting...

been suicidal for weeks. they are thinkig of puting me in a locked ward and give me ECT.

got robbed. dont care about the money even though Im broke. the photos of my father hurts the most....

Weekend! No need to explain.

feeling good but tired. dyed my hair bright red today. needed a change.

going to the hospital with my mom, again. she might have coloncancer. feeling empty.

sleept for 14 hours when I came home from school last night. studied all day today. gonna sleep some more know. sooo tired...

Aaah, sleeep. No school, no stress, just me and my hobbies.

Took som Naproxyn and Diazepam. Fever is lower and anxiety too. Gonna fall asleep infront of the tv with the cat now.

My fever is back, Im sooo tired and feel so sick and lousy again.

Hungover but relaxed.