i was diagnosed bipolar 1 last year but more i know about this illness,i had symtoms all my life. my sister died 7 years ago due to complication (stroke)of bipolar. at the time, i never thought i had anything because i was hipomanic most of the time i had no idea what she was going thru.. then, i went into deep depresson after divorce and everythig started like hurrican. when she was still alive, suicide was the topic she would always talk about. it's beyond my understanding how brain can make you think the way that you would never nomally think,