livlaughluv
livlaughluv
Sex: F
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Major Depressive Disorder
Depression: 3
Mania: 1
Emotional: 3
Anxiety: 3
Compulsion: 3
External Stress: Severe
26 F
Function: Moderate
Distress: Moderate
livlaughluv
Female, 26 years
PA, United States
Primary Condition
Major Depressive Disorder and 8 more ▼
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Diagnosis
Diagnosed

About livlaughluv

Hey, I'm a mother of one...very self conscious... and easily hurt by others. I do dwell on things that are said to me, even though I try not to. I have been used and taken advantage of for a long time, but especially in the past couple years. I'm naive and gullible, I trust to easily and alot of people tell me I'm too nice. People tend to play games with my mind thinking they can scare me or maybe they just like to see me upset more. I want to be happy again like I used to be. I want to smile and mean it. I want to be there for my daughter more than ever.

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Member since: Jun 30, 2009 Last Login May 21, 2010

Other Conditions

  1. Eating Disorder
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  2. Generalized Anxiety Disorder
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  3. PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder)
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  4. Panic Disorder
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  5. Postpartum Depression
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  6. Schizophrenia
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  7. Social Anxiety Disorder
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  8. Tobacco Addiction
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More About livlaughluv

Being totally honest.
I'm laying my heart on the line right now.

- I love my daughter Kaylee. period.
- I do love my husband with all my heart, but I'm scared that its not enough.
- I'm going through some rough times right now.
- I'd like to become a nurse, but I have had some set backs.
- I've been accused of things in the past and present that I haven't done and I'd really appreciate if people just talk to me about it before assuming things.
- Just because I don't speak up for myself, and I take the blame for others, doesn't mean that I have to be taken advantage of.
- I don't hate anyone so if you think I hate you I don't.
- The only reason why VERY FEW people know things that are going on in my life, is because I needed someone to talk to that I thought I could trust, so I didn't bottle up the hurt.
- I don't intend to hurt anyone, but after being hurt so badly its hard to say anything optimistic when you feel the way I do.
- I wish people would ask how I'm feeling, maybe then they'd understand.
- I do have depression. So sorry for being emotional.
- Many people don't understand what I have been through the last year.
- Where I'm living I don't have anyone to talk to.
- I feel alone.
- Everybody grew up together around here, I grew up an hour away.
- They have their established friends and nobody wants a new person around.
- I'm that new person.
- I don't feel welcomed by many at all.
- I feel very much hated.
- I feel that I've tried my hardest to get along with everybody, but I've given up now.
- I cry every night.
- I hate waking up, because I don't like leaving my dreams.
- Even though I have to I don't want to face reality.
- If it seems like I'm a snob because I don't talk, its because for some reason I was unfortunately gifted with SHYNESS. I am VERY shy.
- I know that Kaylee knows I'm hurting and that makes me hurt even more.
- I just want to be a good mom and raise my daughter the best I can.
- I am a very nice person, but after being hurt so much I have some anger pent up inside.
- I am only human.
- All I want to do is get along with everybody.
- I'm scared of raising Kaylee alone.
- 99% of the day I wish I was invisible.
- I'm leaving soon.
- I'm not sure if i'm coming back.
- I'm tired of drama.
- I'm tired of fighting.
- Reading back through I realize now more than ever that I really do need God in my life.

This is not directed towards any certain issue, this is directed towards everyone and anything that has ever happened in my life. I've hidden my hurt for over 10 years. This is just a glimpse of how I feel. Think what you may, but I'm finally being honest in how I truly feel.

"Ask me anything you want and I'll tell you anything... Ask me about my life and I'll tell you about my daughter and my brother... they are my life"