Let me first say that Faith in God is the most important thing for me! I don't know how I would make it in life without Him.
I have had issues with health most of my life. It doesn't matter that the experts say it is only an adult disease. I can remember having problems clear back to adolescence. Lately, symptoms have increased in number and with more intensity. Symptoms that have mimicked MS. Sharp stabbing electrical type pains in my arms and legs. I've never experienced them before. My hands and feet sometimes feel like they have been smashed, especially later in the day and at night. Pain, pins and needles, numbness, but without any predictable pattern I have areas of my skin that are like a bad toothache or an exposed nerve when I get even a drop of warm water on them. I am always tired no matter how much sleep I get. Dizziness, more clumsy than usual and having to pick up items over and over again to get them in my hand. Also, dropping things all the time. I usually have to visit the restroom at least 2-4 times per night. I forget dates and times of events, and have had to program an email to myself monthly when it's time to pay the bills. The list can go on..........I've done some really loopy things recently. The funniest (but most frustrating and humiliating) is the day I went on several appointments and errands and at the end of the day noticed that I had 2 different pairs of shoes on my feet....totally unalike in style and appearance. Talk about embarrassing! I can't believe that no one made a comment! You have to laugh, God has a sense of humor.
I suffer Bi-Polar Disorder and Border Line Personality Disorder too, which has gotten worse with time but with medication and counseling I have found some relief. I've undergone extensive testing, but no results except FM which was diagnosed 8 years ago. I used to think I could live with the disease without taking much medication except for Bi-Polar meds. Those are a MUST for me. I am currently taking Lamictal and Desipramine, which has helped but has certainly not cured it. Now, I am convinced that meds are needed for FM as well, due to the regularity and strength of issues. Neurontin is the newest one prescribed by my Neurologist. I have only taken the Neurontin for a few days, but have seen some pain relief at night. My regular Dr prescribed Voltaren prior to the neurologist visit for pain. I haven't taken the Voltaren yet b/c I am not sure how it will interact with the other meds. As stated previously, I don't like taking medications and certainly not so many at a time!
I have had to take a sabbatical (if that's what you want to call it) from full time work. Last year I had 3 part-time jobs, which sometimes felt (and were) like 2 full time jobs! I have found it difficult to find any work that will allow me to work only on good days. I seem to have more hard days lately which had created sadness and anxiety BUT I have had Christian counseling which has taught me to love myself regardless of the illnesses. I look to God for hope (Jeremiah 29:11) and take one day at a time