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tired old me
Sex: F
Data Quality: 3 stars
MS: 23 yrs
Type: Relapsing-Remitting
Relapse: Moderate
Sensation: Moderate
Overall: Mild
Cognition: moderate
Vision: mild
Speech: moderate
Swallowing: moderate
Upper limb: moderate
Walking: moderate
tired old me
Female, 50 years
Wilmington, DE
Primary Condition
MS
Type
Relapsing-Remitting
First symptom
Diagnosis

About tired old me

Back to work full time since October. It has been great, but I feel like a failure aside from work. I used to be able to work and be there for the people in my life. By chance I haven't been needed that much. At this moment, I feel that I am letting God down and failing to do his work. I do keep him in my work, but I feel at the moment that I am needed more than I can live up to. I should be only working part-time and collecting SSDI. The SSA didn't seem to agree, I feel the need to start again, but can't see the road to get there. Pray that God shows me the way to do his will!

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Member since: May 14, 2009 Last Login May 23, 2013

More About tired old me

 January 3, 2012 - Struggling to hang in here. After about six weeks - full-time began taking its toll on me!Enough said!

 

 

September 18, 2011 - I am trying to take one step at a time. It is more difficult than ever. A series of unfortunate events since August 28 have worn me down. On top of that I may have to give up waiting for my SSDI appeal and return to work full-time to save my home. I am depending on a miracle, but if it doesn't come in time - I will do what i must! Of course all of the progress made at home has already lost steam returning part-time. Pray for me..for all of us!

 

 

 

I am keeping the promise I made during Memorial Day weekend of 2009. This is my last week of full-time employment. As previously stated, I love my work. I work for wonderful folks who appreciate my contributions and are keeping me part time! As long as I apply for SSDI on-line by New Year's Eve - my promise is kept. I am swept by a feeling of release just writing these words.

It is May 2, 2010. Had surgery (non MS related) and was out of commision for ten weeks. Still working, but have a clear vision of goals to be accomplished before stopping this fall!

It is difficult at this point, between MS Fatigue and left over surgey fatigue - I struggle!

 Update 08-19-08  Wow, it's tough for me to get here (energy). I actually decided Memorial Day Weekend that it was time. I am still working, but I am planning my exit strategy for sure. You will hear much more from me when it takes place. (Probably mid-winter). MS has just added a new twist to life. So far we only have MRI results, but my daughter has lesions. Be patient and I will have more time. Most of my family have been waiting for me to open a face book account for six months. Eventually! Anyway thanks to all who have welcomed me. Gotta get back to work now! Oh yeah - I haven't had a non-performance dream since I decided it is time!

 

Some have considered my a workaholic. I have always simply enjoyed my work. I am at the point where I need to seriously consider disability. I am not thrilled at this. I still find my work challenging and rewarding. At this point too many things are left undone and I am consistantly dreaming of being unable to perform work duties. That is where I am today!