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        I want to write some things about my mom to give hope to others .She also suffers&has had fibro for 20 years. I remember when she would be in bed for days as her back would freeze up & it literally felt like it was hard as a rock. It was strange to me... I couldn't understand because I was so young . If I knew now what she went through back then I would change so many things. She was going through Tmj issues, as well...had 13 surgeries  so it was bone rubbing on bone she had to take part of her rib to make a joint each surgery was so painful and only gave her 6 months of relief ,she had to stop getting the surgeries she suffers with major migraines &from all the meds she has had to take over the years caused her to have two ulcers which one almost killed her last year the blood vessel busted in her stomach and she almost bled to death all this happening & no one knew it was early in the am she was laying on the floor bleeding she managed to drag her self to the door after a hour of dragging her self the wrong way to the phone &after the dogs kept licking her to wake up which I believe saved her life. She had lost so much blood which had come out of her bottom like a volcano erupted. She is a miracle the hospital staff said! She had 8 blood transfusions & was there for two weeks.She also has had breast cancer twice &has bad residuals from radiation treatment She cant lift her arm without stabbing pain shot through her arm.Now she needs two knee replacements from arthritis.& even while dealing with all her pain she had to help my little brother who has an extreme case of brain allergies he is allergic to everything he is older now but when he was younger there was so much going on that I still cant fathom this is whole other major subject lets just say I cant believe what my mom has had to deal with & be in pain &still be there for me &now my children She has fought the court system many times she got the courts to recognize Fibro & TmJ as a condition.She is 51  &  she has and still suffers so much but is still a light to others she has a big message and she keeps me going.I am my moms care provider so all I see is suffering all day and then I suffer that can ware on a person.But my faith and prayers keep me going it is just sad that so many of the people she was there for over the years left her & this breaks my heart  she didn't deserve that.And now this is what I am dealing with! who really cares&who doesn't care a lot of my friends who I thought were friends were not and this saddens me.I can't go do the things I used too so I am not worthy of friendship that's is not fair.I suffer every day But still want to be there for others & uplift them even when I am down I will still be there for you & encourage you cuz I do have compassion I have seen so much suffering in my 35 years so I do understand and will be there for whoever just needs to express how they feel with no judgement.Thank you for your time:)