I am a 31 year old mother to an 11 yr old, stepmom to an 18 yr old and wife to an amazing man whose best qualities have incidentally become apparent to me over the past few wks since my diagnosis. I live a good life and have been blessed to share my life with a wonderful support team of family and friends. I just can't seem to get myself out of the funk that I have been in for the past few weeks. I am learning more about MS and it seems that everyone I know knows someone who is living with MS, I feel cheated and not normal and just plain old tired of hearing myself complain....read more
I can't help but feel that this is not what I had planned for my life - but who does, right? I am normally quite positive and always hope for the best but I just cant help feeling that I am the one that will end up in the worst case scenerio. I am the person in my family who takes care of everyone, I don't want to have everyone take care of me. I feel enormous guilt for being somewhat helpless or useless in my current state. I don't want to hear that this is Gods way of testing me or that things happen for a reason - I just don't believe it to be that way. A girlfriend of mine sent me to the link to this website, I am excited to get to know people that are in my same situation and may have some insight on getting past the initial shock. I only recently went through my first dose of the IV steriod treatment, 3 consecutive days almost 2 weeks ago and feel no progress - still have the double vision and numbess on the right side of my body. I am hoping to see some progress soon so that I can see straight and get around without feeling so sick all the time.
Jul 16, 2007
May 20, 2010