memyselfandHIV
memyselfandHIV
Sex: M
Data Quality: 1 star
HIV 20 yrs
Mental Symptoms : none
Physical Symptoms : mild
384
VL 0
memyselfandHIV
Male, 49 years
St Petersburg, FL
Primary Condition
HIV
Infected
Apr 1991
First symptom
?
Diagnosis
?

About memyselfandHIV

I have lived in Florida for 25yrs up until Nov. 2008 at which time I moved to NC as my life partner of 20yrs died in 2007 and after a year of struggles and self abuse I decided to go be close to family and re-evaluate my circumstances. It was a true spiritual awakening for me. After 2 yrs I have finally made my way home to St Petersburg, FL. I am a healthier, happier person than when I left. I spent most of the 2yrs in NC alone doing a lot of internal searching. I have found my voice, learned to love ME first and am on the path of living life rather than existing in Life. Life is Good!!.

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I am so happy to be back in Florida, I even convinced my Mom to move here with me and she too is loving life again!!

In the 2yrs I spent in NC I can see the difference in my thoughts and the way in which I am living life. After I lost Ed, I felt sorry for myself, guilty for his death, and I did not put me or my health first. I allowed myself to become non compliant in taking my meds as prescribed, which in turn allowed my CD-4 count to go down and my viral load to soar. It was as if I was playing roullette. moving to NC was a eye opening experience. I was able to look deep within and I kind of secluded myself and sheltered me from the outside world and took the time to read some excellent books on spirituality, and self awareness. I learned how difficulty could be turned into growth and grow I did. today I stand taller, speak openly and take the time I need to be the best I can be. Old habits die hard, but once gone are not missed. I am on the right path now and plan to continue this course with a positive attitude, open mind and live with no regrets. It has been a rough row to hoe as my grandma would say, but its one that led to excelled cultivation. I am proud of who I am, what I have accomplished and where I am headed. As I venture on this new course in life as a single gay positive male I fear nothing and only see blue skies and sunshine ahead and for those dark days I shall find my rainbow and those dark nights I will find my star and as I venture on I know that with God, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE