I am having severe depression this past month. After 2 years of sobriety I got drunk on Monday. 2-3 doctors have diagnosed my with borderline personality disorder, and the symptons fit me but for cutting. I need help. The reason I got drunk is that I have melasma, and had just spent 3000 on a laser which made it worse. I have had melasma for three years, and I just couldn't take it anymore, I used to be pretty now so ugly. I have had severe panic attacks since I was 17, and been hospitalized for alcoholism at least 5x.