*~Soon I will learn to accept defeat with my head held high, eyes open wide, with the grace of a woman not the grief of a child~*
Found out recently that I am Bi-Polar! I also have OCD, PTSD, Panic Disorder, Insomnia, and Generalized Anxiety Disorder. I have Degenerative Disk Disease, broken tail bone, 5 herniated disks in my neck, and arthritis in my entire back and neck. I fell down three flights of stairs.
I am 23 years old and I have three beautiful children ages 7, 5, and 3. They are my life... they make my world go round. I try to be the best I can for them. They make me a better person. I try to not let my illnesses affect them so they can live happy wonderful lives. That is my dream for them!
So a little more about me... What to say what to say. I've had most of my MI's since 96 when my mother was killed in a car accident. That is when the Anxiety and Panic disorder hit the hardest. Besides the severe physical and mental abuse, my mother's death is also why I have PTSD. I've been an Insomniac since I was a kid and I don't know why. I'm not your average girl and I always speak my mind. Some people like it some don't. That doesn't mean I am going to change. I love who I am and it has taken me years to become this person. I was always molding myself into what others wanted me to be and now I'm just me... Raw.
I'm very sensitive emotionally but also hard as nails. I use words to strike or console... Make peace or make war. I don't need to use my fists because my words work better. I can be a really mean person but it takes a lot to get me to that point.
Normally I'm just quite unless someone gets me talking about something I love to talk about and then it's hard to shut me up. I love life and all the struggles that come with it. Though I have many MI's and PI's I still am happy because I am alive and though I take so many meds they help make me function so I can be somewhat human. I thank God for those.
I am in love with a wonderful man. Once upon a time long long ago we were married but that marriage... that LIFE didn't work and we ended it. Then, like a fairytale, my knight in shining armor came to rescue me and when he took off his helmet it was my ex!! He's amazing in every way makes me feel like a queen when I feel no better than the jester! He knows all about my MI's and PI's and loves me still. Without him by my side I don't know how I would have made it through the tough times. He's always by my side and when I'm down as low as I can get it's always his hand waiting to pull me back up! He is also the father of my three children. We have been together for almost 8 years and as I always tell him... "I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you!" I mean every word! :) <3
My kids are my everything and without them I would be nothing. My children are my heroes. I'm not a perfect person and I make many mistakes yet they love me unconditionally regardless of my flaws and shortcomings. They teach me to be a better more beautiful person on the inside and out. I owe my life to them and thank God everyday that I get to wake up to their beautiful faces
My birthday is May 15 and my favorite color is green. My favorite day of the week is Wednesday and I hate thursdays. LOL Wierd I know but that's me! Alrighty then... anything else you want to know you're just going to have to ask.
Oct 24, 2008
Jan 11, 2012