- sfn94114
- Sex: M
- Data Quality: 1 star
- HIV 11 yrs
- Mental Symptoms : mild
- Physical Symptoms : none
- 1548
- VL 50
- sfn94114
- Male, 54 years
- SF, CA
- Primary Condition
- HIV
- Type
- HIV-1: Group M: Type A1
- Infected
- Jun 1978
- First symptom
- ?
- Diagnosis
- ?
About sfn94114
About Me; Joe to Joseph in the past two years! It's been a long hard two year road of darkness to light and I am trying to reach for the golden ring; just keep missing it!!!
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All started with a fall two years ago 11-30-07 an a nightmare many, many symptoms’ of what is called a “concussion” of wild feelings and emotions, grief and contented, with despair when I slip, and for get abot the “gift” and get out of the moment (Present) an numbness of sorrow for myself take over until I come back an remember…
-- Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a “gift”. That is why it is called the "present." Master Oogway in Kung Fu Panda
I guess I am one of the lucky one if you want to say having HIV lucky; nevertheless my T-cells have never been better and went up 150+ point to #1348 and undetectable for 29++ years to the day my anniversary this past month as have I known when and who this ride began with all on stupid night, but we didn’t know better then…
So I try to stay on the path and live in the present which has bed a hard one with every thing at once coming down, from a fall from 12’ hitting my head on granite counter top, to 5 months in bed and the lost of 40lb
To employee running my company into the ground, when I trusted, I was wrong but too sick to work, ending up fighting TBI traumatic brain injury and the lost of a home and ex which was for the best.
This whole experience turned into a weeding of friend or the lack of them.
I lucky to be here trying to write something about me as it was serious that I really should not be here now and in the present moment.
So I move on looking to reach that ring with in the next few month and start my new pathway now soon back on the east coast.
Away from San Francisco when I grew up, as a boy to a man, from Joe to now Joseph again with all the changes my birth name seems fitting now… A new and first tattoo and maybe a second all marking the end of one cycle and the beginning on the NEXT!!!
Sorry for the spelling what in my head does not always come out…
So with therapy and love I look forward to this new life and a fresh start in NY.
“Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today.” ~ James Dean
THE QUEEN OF SWORDS !!!
