kenaka
kenaka
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  • Sex: Female
  • Age: 49y
Condition: 14 additional condition(s)
Quality of Life:
  • Mental: Unreported
  • Physical: Unreported
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kenaka
Female, 49 years
Rural Northern California, CA
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Dissociative Identity Disorder and 13 more ▼
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About kenaka

Hi, I'm Kate; I like in rural Northern California. I deal with a range of mental health issues and I hope to connect with others here who may be dealing with some of the same "stuff."

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Member since: Jun 30, 2008 Last Login Jun 26, 2009

Conditions

  1. ADHD (Attention Deficit/Hyperactivity Disorder)
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  2. Alcohol addiction
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  3. Chronic Fatigue Syndrome
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  4. Dissociative Identity Disorder
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  5. Eating Disorder
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  6. Fibromyalgia
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  7. Generalized Anxiety Disorder
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  8. Major Depressive Disorder
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  9. OCD (Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder)
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  10. PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder)
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  11. Panic Disorder
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  12. Phobic disorder
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  13. Social Anxiety Disorder
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  14. Tobacco Addiction
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More About kenaka

 That "stuff" I deal with comes in a variety of shapes, all of which have, of course, compounded through the years, as I tried to run from them, hide from them, deny their existence.

My life began to come unglued about 3 years ago. And then, in July of 2006, I suffered a terrible trauma--the kind of thing you just don't believe could ever happen. Anyway, that was the very last straw on this camel's back and I broke. I'm like Humpty Dumpty: I don't think that the pieces will ever be put together again.

At that time, I suffered a complete breakdown and was ordered by a doctor to begin psychiatric treatment. (Yes, ordered. It was pretty much that or admission to the hospital.) The psychiatrist diagnosed me with Major Depression, Complex PTSD, and Generalized Anxiety Disorder almost immediately. Over the past two years, the list has grown; but, as it's grown, so has my level of acceptance. 

In a way, this hard journey has been a blessing. It has forced me to face all the many things I hid--and hid from--for years. I am trying to find my path, if not to healing, then at least to acceptance, gaining the tools I need for my journey, with the help of my truly awesome psychiatrist. (Yes, the same psychiatrist I was "ordered" to see two years ago.)

Acceptance is so often the hardest part of diagnoses, isn't it? For me, the struggle was in acceptance of myself, that none of my "stuff" is something I can change or that I created. It's not my fault; and when I say that I can't do something, I am speaking the simple truth, a truth which I can't, at this point, change.

It has been a healing and humbling experience to share my journey with others online, and to share in their own journeys, as well. I hope to be a part of both those experiences here at PatientsLikeMe.