picspec
picspec
Sex: F
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Major Depressive Disorder
Depression: 4
Mania: 1
Emotional: 4
Anxiety: 4
Compulsion: 4
External Stress: Overwhelming
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41 F
Function: Low
Distress: High
picspec
Female, 41 years
MI, United States
Primary Condition
Major Depressive Disorder and 7 more ▼
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Diagnosis
Diagnosed

About picspec

Since Sept. of 2007, I have been hospitalized twice for having a suicide plan and cutting. I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, ptsd, major depression, dysthymia and more recently bipolar. I have seen 3 different psychiatrist's, 1 said bipolar and the other two disagree and they're not sure about the borderline personality disorder either, whatever. I struggle every day with my depression, suicidal thoughts and urges to cut.

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Member since: Jun 27, 2008 Last Login Aug 09, 2009

Other Conditions

  1. Bipolar Disorder
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  2. Borderline Personality Disorder
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  3. Dysthymia
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  4. Generalized Anxiety Disorder
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  5. PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder)
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  6. Social Anxiety Disorder
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  7. Tobacco Addiction
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More About picspec

I have been married since 2002 but don't have any children. I am afraid to pass any of this on to the next generation. My parents are both miserable - depression etc, and only married to get out of their parents house. To make things worse they decided to have two children and make their lives miserable also. Even though it means me not being here, I think they shouldn't have brought any children into the world since they didn't really love each other and were suffering themselves so much.
I love reading, writing stories and poetry, playing violin which I've been doing since age 12 in the 6th grade, cross-stitching, geneology, scrapbooking, and photography.
I have one cat named Callie, who is my baby. We got her when she was 6 weeks old and could fit into my hand. It's been great to see her grow and explore new things.

I have two sisters neither of which suffer from any of the things I do that I know of. I have one niece and three nephews whom I love more than anything.

I was molested by my father and my stepfather. I no longer talk to my father. My stepfather is in prison for molesting another little girl, something I blame myself for because I didn't get him put away when he did it to me. He gets out in Dec. 2008 and is coming here where I am to live, which fills me with great dread.