ok...i'm going to vent alittle....i'm tired of feeling like noone cares and noone really wants to hear what i have to say about anything anymore...the one person i could trust broke that trust so now i'm alone in once again...i'm getting use to being alone but at the same time i just want someone to be there with me. and at times i think to myself im never going to find that one guy that would never understand what i go through or what happens to me. i dnt want people to feel sorry for me i just want them to understand.

went out of town for a cheerleading comp. this past weekend and i've over done it hips are killing me the steroids shot did not work on my left hip....oh well time to rest so i can work

a couple of weeks ago i had bilateral hip injections and they seem to help but the cold is not getting any warmer here and it needs to so i can walk with out pain....but overall its been pretty good week

been feeling ok the last couple of days alot of stress on me and i hate to say it but the vit.d has helped it......along with the pain meds emoticon smile

went to the doc today and my liver count is high like three times what its suppose to be so he redrew the labs and waiting to see if its right and if its correct i will have to go see a GI doctor to see why this is happening....i cant catch a flippin break!

this weather has been awful! i'm tired of the cold rainning weather my joints can not take it anymore...cant wait to see him next week!!!

after being on the phone with the insurance companies and everyone else i was approve for a 9000 copay assistant for infusion and now i just wait for my card and called them and then i set up my appt and get started again...emoticon smile

looks like i'll be looking for a new dr and a new drug since my insurance changed for the worst and now i feel like i have to start all over!

nothing can be easy can it? insurance is causing me to get mad and very depressed the treatment i'm on benlysta isnt cover under the medinice part but cover under the medical part but how much do they cover? noone flippin knows i had to reschedule my treatment for friday to see if it covers anything and this is bull bc this helps and it works better then some of the other drugs i've been on!

some people really know how to make you feel bad about your self.....its sad knowing they get a kick out of it

its a new day and new year hopefully and new insurance god i hope it doesnt break me

having a major problem staying awake, is there anything my doctor can give me

ok.....i've been depressed from lupus before but this is kicker i cant seem to kick this depression and its driving me nuts, i thought visiting my mom back in home would help but i hasnt.....nothing seems to be working right now and i hate this feeling..emoticon sad

This has to be the worst day ever I feel like my joints are beating itself up hurt so flippin bad

So went to the Orthopedic doc today gotta get a MRI done of my knee today at 430 to see if my cartilage is tore if it is then back to surgery for my knee and hip hey atleast it on my left side both of them.

Oh how I can't wait for Tuesday to go see the Orthopedic doc about my thumb. But as the thumb was healing my knee did something weird and now I can't really bend in...
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so tired of this cold weather killing my joints my hips and knees are killing me!!

Got a question can lupus or prednisone affect the muscle and legaments? Bc I'm pretty site that I tore my legament in my knee......

I'm in so much pain and nothing is helping it hurts to walk it hurts to do anything. I wish I could just fix it.

After working three night straight 12hr shifts and helping friends paint my body feels like its ready to shut down. I twisted my knee I can't bend it and I dnt feel like going to.the Orthopedic doc bc they already think I'm being abuse bc of my broken arm needed hip surgery and need the other one done thumb out of place Nd then this....ugh gotta love lupus