- one_step_closer
- Sex: F
- Data Quality: 3 stars
- Borderline Personality
- Depression: 3
- Mania: 0
- Emotional: 0
- Anxiety: 1
- Compulsion: 2
- External Stress: Low
- Rx Therapy
- 25 F
- Function: Moderate
- Distress: Moderate
- one_step_closer
- Female, 25 years
- Scotland, United Kingdom
- Primary Condition
- Borderline Personality and 7 more ▼
- First symptom
- Jul 2008
- Diagnosis
- Jun 2009
More About one_step_closer
When I was 14 my Mum died which is when my problems were identified but I can remember feeling 'not right' as a child. I didn't have a lot of support and I also had to look after my elderly Dad. I think I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety about 6 months after my Mum died when I was suicidal and self harming for reasons not connected with the loss of my Mum. Since then I have seen many professionals and have been passed from counsellors, to psychologists, psychiatrists, GPs, and back again. Most of the time my therapy didn't last as long as it should have because I felt that everyone was leaving me so I didn't turn up for appointments so that I could be the one to leave them for a change. I do have issues with dependency and fearing that people will leave me when I still need their support. Through CBT I have been helped to understand that I tend to distance myself from people because of this.
Maybe 3 years ago? I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder and I regard myself as a 'quiet' borderline because I don't get really angry and if I am a little angry I take it out on myself rather than expressing it externally.
I volunteer as a supporter on a self harm support website and take part in one to one chat, email, and forum supporting. I have a Bsc in Psychology and I hope to eventually go on to study clinical psychology or a research masters.