ve been depressed since i was fourteen and i guess it started off in this list abandonment sexual assault psychosis abuse suicide and then a lot of suicide In the mist of this there was a lot of depression leading to all this and when i got diagnosed with conversion disorder and lost my ability to walk or even move half the time it made it worse. Currently im diagnosed with major depression with psychotic features so i hear voices conversion disorder and borderline personality disorder. With all these disorders life is hell ive had so many suicide attempts ive lost count and im still depressed today. I barely have friends to talk to. im not smart not pretty and i have a whole list of problems that cause me agony each day. But not all of its bad ive gotten better despite everything going on and partially it hurts being better because it means accepting things you cant change thats called radical acceptance and that's hard. But im learning how to and hopefully each day i wont become weaker but stronger